For fun

 Beneath a calm facade, a war is unfolding within 

children are breaking their guitars.

 I’ve been disrespected. I can’t say how I feel without screaming at the sky. 

But I just looked the other way, without wishing anyone dead.

 The drums in my chest sound like a rave. You don’t understand I’m still alive, and I’m not that thrilled about it.

 You need something worth dying for something that makes all of this worth continuing.

 I watch you from the other side, but you can’t look back at me. You can’t understand what’s happening, but I see everything. 

I want to tear everything apart break things, jump on the bed, bite into something soft, feel my teeth against your skin.

 I want to take all your things and throw them out the window. 

I want to take my things and burn them.

 I want everything to explode. 

But I’m just here, silent, smoking, staring into the distance, waiting for a signal that will set everything off.