Let me go

 Just Let Me Go

I have to learn to sit with the pain one more time 

but this time, it’s definitive.

Half truths, half lies.

You want peace when it’s convenient,

then bring chaos when it feeds you.

Did you think I would stay forever

in the space between?

You kept me on pause,

watching me wait 

how many chances did you flush away?

You enjoyed watching me fight for you,

but you were never worth the fight.

I’m not coming back.

I did too much,

but for you, it was never enough.

You tricked me into giving more and more,

while you sat back and watched me try.

You put your energy into others,

while I bled mine into you.

Like a gladiator in the arena 

you loved to see me battle for my life

while you stood there, untouched.

What was I, an experiment?

I don’t care if you miss me.

I don’t care if regret ever finds you.

I just hope it was worth it.

All I wanted was for you

to be brave enough to let me go.

All the wrong reasons to keep someone 

you never showed mercy,

only selfish desire.

It was convenient that I made you look good,

but it was never about me 

only about you.

Showing my pictures to your friends,

like a trophy,

like something to possess,

like something to control,

like something that loved you,

even when you never deserved it.

Like the head of a wild pig

mounted in your living room.

Some watch other bleed.